Mosiah... an answer to prayers (more of a journal entry...)

long story short... I am a little overloaded, and stressed right now. I don't know who realy cares, but it is my life, and I feel like I cant do it anymore. I am forgetting important things, and not sleeping becuase I am too stressed and constantly worried. I love Randy, but just telling me to calm down, doesnt work. How can I? There are too many things that need to be done, too many things I dont have answers to... Well, tonight, I kinda had a break down (yeah, It happens more than I like to admit.) After realizing I cant doing it on my own and crying for a while, I finally started to pray... I honestly don't know if I have the faith I need to really hear the answers, but I prayed. There is nothing else to do at this point. As I cried to my Father in Heaven the only thing that came to mind was to read my scriptures. I have never been the best at reading and studying my scriptures on a regular basis... But they were there by my bed. So I picked them up not knowing where to even start. My patriotically blessing was sticking out, so I read that first, it gave some comfort, but I was still doubting my own faith, so how are the blessing promised supposed to happen if I am not faithful enough... crying some more I opened my scriptures... My mind turned to Alma, I don't know why (beside guidance from the spirit) and decided to start in Mosiah. The answers I got our unimportant for this blog, but I wanted someone to know, that I KNOW my heavenly father listens! Just the words aren't the answer, but how perfectly they fit to my issues are... just what I needed. I still have a long way to go. This doesn't "Fix" anything, but maybe it will help. I am still overwhelmed, but maybe I have more faith to ask my Heavenly Father for help.